"Even now, I cannot decide whether I was foolish dupe or noble and tragic lover. Or whether the two are one and the same."

“Social morality requires a shared matrix of communal reality to which to relate thought and deed, and the illusion of an objective ethical esthetic requires at the very least the conviction that objective reality is more than a contradiction in terms.”

“True civilization consists precisely of conventions, rituals, and modes of oblique communication whereby the chaos within and the void without may be expressed and contained within the harmonious consensus of shared social objectivity, thus maintaining our bubble of crafted reality, the necessary illusion.”

“For truth be told, I was tormented by perceptions and their corollary temptation which from a social definition rendered me unsane, though from a more absolute viewpoint what I might be said to have been suffering from was an excess of insight.”

“Was not the arbitrary distinction between illusion and reality the ultimate illusion itself?”

“Any attempt at willful ignorance would now be futile or worse; the only talisman against excessive knowledge that might have puissance would be more knowledge.”

“At that moment, I do now truly believe, the deed was done, in the sense that the decision of the will is the true essence of the act.”